150 or 140 1/2

I am very proud of myself. Yes, I am. I stepped on the scale this morning and it read 150. That means that if I can manage to lose 1/2 of 1 pound I will have achieved an important goal that I have been chasing for a few years. Someday I will weigh less that 150 pounds. That's the goal and I'm so close that I can taste it.

HOWEVER....does it really matter? I mean isn't 150 pounds basically the same as 149 1/2 pounds (which would be below 150). I think it is but then again it isn't. When I weigh in at 150 I think it is same but when I finally make it to 149 1/2 I will think that there is a huge difference between those two numbers. Very interesting!!!

Anyway, whatever! I am really close and I am going for it. I've been really eating well lately. I've also been doing yoga almost every day. I taught Saturday for Juliana at the Yoga Source, Sunday at the Salon,and Monday at Juliana's studio. The rest of my week has lots of yoga in it as well. I really need to start more cardio but I'm feeling well and looking great or at least that's what people have been telling me. :)

So it's all in place. Now I just have to continue down the right path. :)

Where Does Self Confidence Come From?

It's the question of the day for me. Where does self confidence come from? Why don't I have any? Like today, for example. I am teaching at Juliana's which is always a wonderful experience. The students are always very complimentary when class is over. I've never heard one bad thing about my teaching but right now I'm sitting here nervous about teaching. Why don't I ever believe my own good press?

After class today, my best yoga bud in the entire world, Ruth is taking me over to LA Fitness to talk to the person who hires the yoga teachers for all the clubs in this area. I am totally nervous about this meeting. Now, not only am I a Registered Yoga Teacher certified by the Yoga Alliance and CPR certified but I also worked at Curves for a year and a half. I've lost 95 pounds in my life. I'M FRIENDS WITH RICHARD SIMMONS!!!! It seems to me that I would be a great fit for them but still I am nervous. What if they don't like me? What if they do like me? The idea of walking up in front of 30 or 40 people and teaching is making me sick to my stomach. Why am I even doing this? Yeah, I need to find my self confidence. Where is it?