Dental Issues

I went to Dr Spector's office for a check up today and Katrina found a pocket in my gums that was very large. She did an x-ray and I was told that the tooth is not good. It looks like my choices are going to be a dental implant that costs $3200 and is not covered by insurance or an apicoectomy which is one of the most painful dental procedures out there. I know this because I have had two of them. I got a black eye with both of them and was down for two weeks.

I am very scared right now. I'm not sure which is worse. The apico is extremely painful and expensive but my dental insurance will help out the the cost of that. The implant is not as bad as far as pain is concerned (I am told) but it is not covered by insurance. I am also having some pain in my lower left area that Dr Spector says is from the scaling that we recently did but I have my doubts about that. I'm hoping that the pain will go away. It seems to be getting worse.

If I have an apico I'll have to sub out my Sunday class because as I remember Dr Flax only does big operations on Fridays and there is no way I'll be able to teach on Sunday. I really don't want to have to do that. I am developing a following with that class and I don't want to lose it but there really is nothing that I can do about it.

I guess I should just wait until my appointment with Dr Flax on Friday and see what is said. Whatever it is it is and there is nothing I can do about it. I have to accept whatever happens and not freak out. Freaking won't do me any good. I need to follow my own advice and live in the present moment.

Back to 155.5

The scale was not my friend this morning. It read 155.5. On second thought maybe the scale was my friend by telling me the truth. A real friend tells you the truth no matter what even if you don't like what you are hearing and I don't like it at all.

It's not as if I didn't know. I know my eating has been out of control lately. I don't know why. I'm not upset by anything new. I mean, I miss Kerry but I always miss her. She did tell me that she would be spending her spring break with Frank in Gainesville and not be coming home at all but I know that's what makes her happy. It's what I want for her. I want her to be happy. I have my new yoga studio up and running. I love it and so do the students. I am teaching two fantastic classes at The Yoga Source and they are growing every week.

I also know that I have not been getting any exercise besides yoga. It's really all I do. I need to get some kind of cardio back in my life. Although I have been walking with Michele a few times a week we are not really walking very fast and it's not really much of a challenge for me. I've given up weights completely. I absolutely need to get back on track with my exercise because as the exercise goes so goes the eating.

So today is a new day. I am going to Juliana's yoga class at the Source and then when I get home I am going to do some cardio. It's cool out today so I could actually bring my sneakers with me and stop at the track on the way home or I could do a richard video in the yoga room. I don't have a TV in there anymore so I'd have to put it on my laptop but that's ok.

It's all about calories in and calories out and I know that. My calories in has been way more than my calories out. Get a grip, Claudia. It's what you need to do for your health and that's all that matters. I need to be healthy for Pat and Kerry and for me and my own peace of mind.