She's Leaving Home, Bye, Bye

Kerry left this morning to go back to Gainesville and I am bummed. The longer her visit is the more bummed I am when she leaves. Seeing that she was here for almost a month I am very bummed. The trick will be to stay away from the refrigerator now that she is gone. This is always one of my most difficult tasks and it just got even more trying.

The caller ID said "Kerry" when the phone rang. I knew something was wrong from the first word. "Mom'"? "Yeah". "I have a flat tire". These are the words that I dread when she is on the one of these road trips. My mind goes wild. I can't help it. I imagine the most awful things that could happen to her. Thankfully she not alone. She is with her friend Jackie which makes me feel 100% better.

While she was on the phone talking to me a state trooper came along. Yes!!!! He called the Florida Turnpike emergency truck and they are on their way to change the tire for her. Now my mind says what if she has no air in the spare? How will she make it to Gainesville on a donut tire? What if? What if? What if? OK Claudia, stop all that! You are driving yourself crazy. Worry about it when it happens, whatever it is that is going to happen.

This is a facet of my personality that I wish I could change. I am in constant worry mode when either Kerry or Pat are away from me which is most of the time. I drive them both crazy. I know I do but I can't help it. I always think the worst when things are not exactly the way they should be where either one of them is concerned. God help me if they don't answer their phones when I call. I have to talk myself down from the walls. I have to keep telling myself that everything is going to be okay. It's going to be fine. Maybe I should go to a shrink. Nah. As Popeye says, I am what I am. I'll just sit and worry until everything is alright. Maybe all this worrying will keep my head out of the fridge. Maybe.